This sample is from a section of the book that tries to summarize the specifics.
These are mostly at unknown times, some just not moved for convenience, and they are out of order.
*There were two completely different Books of Mormon, I once thought.
*One time I saw Calculus measurements on everything and thought it had happened when I was young, before I could even remember anything else and perhaps somehow before birth.
*Hearing numbers, times and dates to do things and then they’d change was so annoying, even if they stayed true. I would receive or lose points and statements would change; also annoying.
*Every year I had to feel very faint, which I can’t talk about more. I felt I was an Aztec king.
*I would always hear words out of sound effects, voices talking through paintings back and forth and lip-reading out loud on mute TV. Sometimes there were object-sized but huge intergalactic civilizations that just went out to tell me something. In a Hobbit™ movie, they had sound effects that you would have to unwind the right way to get the right message.
*I would hear voices in my hair in the hospital, which was a Raϵlian thing. They also mentioned it in a Korn song about politics.
*A website on thought control would poke my body all over.
*A challenge to deny the Holy Ghost saw angels visiting me and things coming in and out.
*I often thought I was on the Truman Show™.
*I would often have loose reasons. For years I thought I had no foundation.
*With selective attention, either I see something undeniable but my brain forgets or it’s barely possible. My brain has kept the illness this way until recently.
*Dreaming and imagining, I would often observe something when my eyes were closed that wasn’t true to try to mess me up. It rarely worked but it caused a lot of freaking out. I believed a large portion of my time that I had gone back to High School.
Whenever I heard things, either there was, “absolute proof,” but I couldn’t remember them or there was, “probably proof,” but I could find a lackluster way out.
Some things I could barely remember and was unsure how to apply.
*My voices were very clever! Sometimes I heard words I did not know the meaning of.
*My voices made me forget many things!
*When my eyes weren’t open, I would observe things to mess me up. Things were set that weren’t.
*As for eyes being closed, sometimes I viewed prayer as finding your secret spot to fight against everything else and that it had nothing to do with a real God but was just an exercise people ‘evolved’ to learn.
*Wondering about things at a deeper level made it so that I couldn’t recognize schizophrenia at the normal level.
*Sometimes I had temporary memory lapses.
*People like my parents and clergy would sometimes say things to change my state. People could say things that I didn’t remember telling anyone.
*It sometimes just seemed that whether I was looking mentally or physically, everything was just one continuous linear sequence.
Some thought broadcasting was very elaborate so I just assumed it worked in a very complex way, like saying “Yahweh” instead of “Yahoo!” in Bruce Almighty when he checked his email of prayers. “Yahweh” had sound spaces in it to reverence it. I always seemed to have a different prayer for the sacrament in the LDS Church which is forbidden.
I thought guitar music generally carried people through life but if exact could bring you to the brink of the Universe.
One time I thought of having land on an earthquake fault because I was king. My dad asked me if I had it though I didn’t remember telling anyone. Often people would inquire about thoughts I had no memory of divulging.
*There were basketball games where, whenever the crowd yelled out, “***-ball” prophet,” the team would always make the basket without exception.
*Inventions like a spoon would block freedom because they were unmalleable and would enable things to only move at certain angles.
*There was a devotional at BYU by a Jew from a nice University. He said science and religion are appropriate half the time. He looked like Brigham Young in a quick hallucination. It was bloody hot and I got out before the end because it was so hot.
I would barely see Jewish things until I noticed, like a way to establish myself as king or Hebrew letters in the air.
*Sometimes my mind would thin out and there was not much thought of audible kind.
A lot of people were careful how they talked around me. My Dad said, “A lot of people care about you,” and I thought I was a celebrity.
*Raϵlians think time and space are infinite and everything is cyclic, but before then I thought occurrence of words necessitated repeating events that many times. For instance, for every minted quarter there would be another George Washington and when someone typed www it would mean another George Bush. I never got around to fixing the problem though.
*Sometimes I thought people were dying all around me which was being hidden from me.
*During a chess game, I got telepathy that my opponent was comfortable if the S&P 500 went to 600.
I thought people controlled me to make me look kingly like I didn’t even need to go to school because there was an alternate record.
*I thought Arabic and English were like anthills with American and Middle Eastern oil where they controlled everything off of their energy and they were competing.